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My Story:My Testimony

Updated: Jul 21






The Prodigal Daughter


For a while I had been having a difficult time trying to keep my relationship with God. I kept thinking that I was losing myself when I found it hard to pray. I would start and, in the middle, or often towards the end of the prayer I would lose my train of thought , get distracted and forget that I was praying. I felt so guilty and apologised to God for not giving Him the time through prayer to grow my relationship with Him. I found myself reading the bible less and only seeking God when things were rough. I forgot to praise Him when I was happy, joyful and when I was just acknowledging His name. I had forgotten who I was in Christ, and normal things that were happening to me felt like a continuous spiritual attack on my life.

 




From being a woman who prayed daily, fasted, attended all night prayers, participated in prayer challenges, worshiped all night and prayed for others. I had become a person that had a faith but my belief in my faith had essentially depleted. I had not forgotten Him, but I felt I did not have the right words to approach Him. I felt the darkness slowly take over and even on a bright sunny day there were constant small battles I had to fight. I confided in a loved one and I proudly told them that “God knows my heart, and though I do not have the right words to pray, He knows what I am going through”. I had been feeling this way because internally I was pleading with God to hear me and in Him knowing my heart should suffice. I was wrong. The sentiment of God knowing your heart holds some value, but it does not even compare to actively seeking Him through praise, worship, prayer and scripture. I was given an example, “You are a parent, and imagine your child not speaking to you or ever talking to you. Imagine if they say the same things you do, my parent knows my heart. Sometimes God knows but He wants you to speak about what you are going through and pray that He is with you through it all.” This opened my eyes and showed me that I cannot keep hiding behind that statement or keep thinking God will miraculously help me when I don’t actively seek Him nor have a relationship with Him.

 



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Finding my path back to Christ was not easy, but I knew I could not make it without God for He had always been my rock. I started with praising His name in the mornings and quick short prayer to thank Him for waking up, followed by more prayers counting my blessings and being grateful throughout the day. It wasn’t easy at first, I really struggled because I went from being a prayer warrior to not seeking God at all. So the journey to rediscover myself was not easy. In the process of rediscovering myself, I repeatedly meditated on the word: “Psalm 28:7 The Lord is my strength and my shield; My heart trusts in Him, and I am helped; Therefore my heart exults, And with my song I shall thank Him”. I also found that Psalm 18:2 The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, My God, my rock, in whom I take refuge; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold”. These words started to bring light back into my life and I began my journey to redirect my path to God and my relationship with Him. God has been showing me each day that finding myself in Him gives me peace, hope, humility and forgiveness. Daily morning prayers to thank God for waking up and seizing the day have ben helpful. Lamentations 3:25 “The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him”. Rebuilding myself and my faith has been a journey that many are yet to discover. I found the darkness mentally exhausting, however, rediscovering the light in faith I began to feel like myself again. A woman of faith, a woman of prayer and a woman with a purpose to build the ministry of God. I use my voice daily to pray, sing and just say His name. “You are God, mighty are Your miracles”. This is not a short journey, but I am determined to grow further in my faith and seek God in all His glory. I am still growing and praying for He has shown me that there is always a better path when God is with you.





I have shared this personal journey because there may be many that are going through the same and not know how to rebuild that relationship, I want to let you know that God is always with you, He listens, He forgives, He cares, He loves you and He will never abandon you. Seek Him wholly and faithfully, for He will always be with you.

 

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The word in Jeremiah 29:12-14 says; Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you, declares the Lord, and I will restore your fortunes and gather you from all the nations and all the places where I have driven you, declares the Lord, and I will bring you back to the place from which I sent you into exile. God felt so far away from me, but He never left me. I asked for forgiveness and prayed for strength in my faith once more and Abba Father was there.




 

Prayer

Dear God, my Heavenly Father, Alpha and Omega, King of kings, Lord of lords, I come to You whole heartedly seeking forgiveness for losing my way to You. I say this prayer for myself and for any child of God that has found themselves in a similar position. I pray that those that are still unsure on how to seek You will find a way to rediscover who they are in You and themselves, to know that You are a God of love, forgiveness and grace. Jehovah, when times have been hard, we have prayed and felt close to You, and we have recently lost our way in seeking you. Today I pray that whoever has been finding it difficult to pray, worship or losing faith will forgive themselves and begin to find their path to building a strong relationship with you Almighty Lord. Your word says “Seek the Lord and His strength; seek His presence continually!” (Psalm 105:4) As I pray, may all who have been finding it difficult begin to have faith in You once more and faithfully grow their relationship with You and not turn away from their path again. May they seek You always, no matter how difficult it may seem .May they always acknowledge You through the good and the bad. Thank You, Father. I seal my prayer with the blood of Jesus Christ. Amen!

 

 

 

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titidora29
27 de jun.

My current situation thanks for sharing this

Curtir

Thank you for this post. I am currently struggling with the same thing. Your post gives me hope. God bless you!

Curtir

This is my current state, thank you for sharing this! God bless you!

Curtir
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