Updated: Nov 9
Hello and Happy Sunday to you.Today I am going to talk about loyalty and devotion. I am talking about how much strength it takes to be loyal and to be devoted to someone or something. As a young woman, my dreams were to get married at a certain age, to have a child at a certain age, and to live the dream by a certain age. But ladies I tell you; that is not how it has happened for me. Let’s start from the beginning. I met this guy, I wasn’t looking for love and I wasn’t looking to settle down. However, when I met this guy, we will call him “Shawn” so we don’t keep saying this guy lol, when I met Shawn that quickly changed. All these things I never knew I wanted so bad became something I craved and desired more than ever. Me and Shawn met 9 years ago, I now wanted the life, I wanted the marriage, the kids, the house and the life. However, my plans were not God’s plans or Shawn’s , so I decided to read the bible and came across Ruth. Ruth, a biblical character, a woman who after being widowed remains with her mother in law. She stated “Where you die, I will die—there will I be buried.” Ruth accompanies Naomi to Bethlehem and later marries Boaz, a distant relative of her late father-in-law. She is a symbol of abiding loyalty and devotion. So you might ask why am I talking about Ruth when Ruth had everything and lost everything? And yet I have not even had anything nor have I lost anything? The reason I am talking about Ruth is her loyalty and devotion. I realised that God will always give you your hearts desires if you seek him first right? (Psalm 37 v 4 - Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart) (Isiah 58 v 14 - 14
then you shall take delight in the Lord,
and I will make you ride on the heights of the earth;
I will feed you with the heritage of Jacob your father,
for the mouth of the Lord has spoken.”)
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So now I think ok, I’ve read the bible and looked for confirmation of what I thought in my head was what I should do right? I am now trying to inject that in my relationship; so I’m like, I have been in a relationship with this man for three years, and I now want my marriage and kids and the house, quoting the word of God like" God you said to me, you will give me my hearts desires" but not realising that I must seek him first.
So I decided to fast and pray because I was thinking to myself, this man is not proposing as I have hinted to this man,trust me I left enough hints for him. I’m ready for kids, for marriage; (tooting my own horn too)I am beautiful so what is he waiting for? So I am now running with the verse “I will give you your hearts desires” so I’m there fasting and praying 30 days and I see no results. Then I decide to do a different type of fasting- a water fast and breaking it and 6pm for two weeks, still no results. I’m like God what are you doing to me? But God is up there looking down at me and saying this child has no idea. So I decided maybe a man of God might have answers maybe I need a bit of help and guidance. My mistake was first going to seek confirmation in the form of a man who I believe can communicate with God better than me? How silly, how blinded I was. I thought God can only communicate with someone else for my problems better than he could communicate with me? So I wasted time and energy which at this point, God was still laughing and saying my child, “you must come to me”.
I decided this is not working, Covid happened, forced me to take time out, communicate with God and have that one on one with him which I did. I decided to spend time and get to know God. My relationship was going through turmoil and it was taking a toll on me. So I had no choice but to go on my knees and have a relationship with God. I learnt to talk to God, I built a relationship with God, I took it a day at a time. I started by talking to God, when I would drive to work in the morning, I would just be like “God how are you? So let’s talk my life is not ok, without you guiding me, I am unable to make it, I gave up on controlling my life and trying to piece it together my way. I said God I understand that it’s your will over my life, so as you please buy know my hearts desires and now I can honestly say I see Gods work in my life, I see Gods presence in my life. I have not got my marriage nor my kids nor my house, but I am so content with God and I have gained more having God in my life and I trust that what is meant for me will find me. Just like Ruth, loyalty and devotion will result in having my hearts desires answered. God is the way ladies, nothing done without him will ever be built on a solid foundation. My testimony is around the corner and as I remain loyal and devoted to my Father in Heaven it will come to pass. I believe and have faith.
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I leave you with this prayer:
Father, search my heart. Help me to be the kind of person others can depend on. I seek first Your Kingdom. In Jesus’ name. Amen
I leave you with this Scripture:
The Lord bless you, my daughter,” he replied. “This kindness is greater than that which you showed earlier: You have not run after the younger men, whether rich or poor. 11 And now, my daughter, don’t be afraid. I will do for you all you ask. All the people of my town know that you are a woman of noble character. 12 Although it is true that I am a guardian-redeemer of our family, there is another who is more closely related than I. 13 Stay here for the night, and in the morning if he wants to do his duty as your guardian-redeemer, good; let him redeem you. But if he is not willing, as surely as the Lord lives I will do it. Lie here until morning.”
God bless you for passing by.
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